Posted by Bridge on May 10, 1999 at 14:52:10:
In Reply to: what's going on? posted by Theo on May 09, 1999 at 23:16:20:
I can't even begin to address all of the stuff you've brought up. Besides, it has nothing to do with the cello. I, at least right now, don't feel particularly comfortable about sharing a lot of things about myself. However, I just have to say, that my life hasn't been a bowl of cheries either. I think the therapy thing is a good thing. I've had emotional despair on par with yours and there is hope. I think if you take care of your emotional state, the rest will follow.
The harder you grasp a handful of sand, the more it slips through your fingers. To have all of the sand, you have to not want it so much. Sounds like BS? It really isn't. At the risk of being way too personal, your mom probably has some of her own issues about fame and success and that is her reason for telling you what she did. Before you dismiss, just keep it in the back of your head. I've had a similar experience. Not in the details, but in the relationship/emotions. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. All of the BS you've gone through probably makes you a lot more aware of life than most of the kids who are worried about more trivial things.